Smile Like You Mean It: Preparing .... ^^

Hello :)

Its 2.45am now .

Finally updating . But i will try to update fast uh , cos i need to rest and i have to wake up kinda early later . Will be going to TTSH to accompany dearest Grandma together with Sister . Mum will be coming abit later as she got something to finish on . The rest i not sure what time going . Maybe whole day at hospital . So whoever going there , saw me , approach kay ? Takmo malu-malu ! Hahha .

Yesterday morning i was abit down actually . Cos of what ? My results . It was badly done like ^%*&^T$%RF#$@ kay ? Idk to be shocked or not . Cos in the first place , i knew that my results gonna be bad by just looking from the way i did it . Secondly , to be shocked , cos it was soo bad beyond my expectations . Nah , not gonna reveal cos i alr say its bad , so its bad lah . Simply 'WOW' -_-" Its for sure i have to repeat both modules and actually dun want to . Hmm . I planned to quit this course for now , then join back in next coming intake maybe the same course if not then different and start everything from basic . Thats all im thinking now , but ALOT are against it . Parents haven know lah ... Sigh . Give me some time to think alright ? I wont say its not my luck or whatsoever . Dah takdir kan . My own fault what for not studying my best . Ohh wells .. Things have happen right ? Dun worry , i no longer down . Im alright now . What for be so down when u cant turn back time . Things have happen , will just have to move on . AND I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO BUCK UP ! FIZA , U SURE CAN DO IT ! InsyaAllah , Amin ... Will try to do my best in next semester if im continueing .

From 3+pm all the way to 7+pm was chatting with Bestfriend Falala ! At last we got to talk . So long din get the chance to talk to her . Miss her seh :( Was online the whole day cos i din went out when actually i have to do a few things seh . Sadded . When i came online , this is what she say , "Finally ! Nampak name awak pop out !" Hahaha Coolness ^^ So we talked on alot of things . Trying to catch-up with each other . I want to meet her soooon please ? InsyaAllah soon . I have alot of typo oke when talking to her . Glad that she understand all the errors , cos i din even re-correct it . HAHA ! Pasal tau dier paham lah , kan Falala ? Haha ^^

Kay actually , i was suppose to follow Cousin Farmy cos he need my help for 2 days . And also i have to go for job interview . But had to give both of it a miss , cos Mama called me saying that Grandma was admitted in the hospital . Tros dah takder mood uh . Thats why i came online , somemore i was abit down cos of my results and something happen to Nenek :( Btw , Sorry Fidah , i paitao-ed todays interview . Promise Monday i will go kay ? I really have to thank her . She's the one who informed me about the job . InsyaAllah , i can get it cos i want to get out of Sakura ASAP . Wahseh , i din believe i just said that about Sakura ! HAHA ! But no choice mah ..
Praying for the best . Amin .

I cant get out of house just now also , cos i have to take care of Zabir while Mama was away at the the hospital with Grandma . So care for him was oke lah , not so bad cos he din perangai sangat just now . And i tried my best not to scold him kay ? And i did it for the 1st time ! Seriously . Raise voice also i did not . Even at the times when he memberontak(Duno whats in English . Heh) also im still cool and be patience . Baek uh Fiza ! Alhamdulillah seh . Today , everything also i have to give in to him in order to let him be quiet cos Mama was away , and if he cries for Mama badly , i'll be dead cos its difficult for him to stop kay . Luckily everything was smooth till his Mum come to fetch him . Then 3rd Brother asked me and Sister to get ready cos he wants to brings us to the hospital . So we trained there together , and we laughed when we heard the new train song ! Lol . And that was the first time Sister heard it as she seldom trained around . HAHA kekek oke . So registered , and off to meet Nenek . She's alright , but cant move her left leg . Dad told us , he saw Nenek's X-ray stuffs , and she really broke her hand like something into pieces and dislocate her leg . OMG oke . What a pity . Its becos she falls down few days back and din know its gonna be that bad . We only tot its only her hand that breaks . So no wonder she cant walk stably after that , she has dislocate her leg sia . Grr .. Kay lets not elaborate more . Other stuffs let it be within our family matters . And when i say break into something like pieces , it is oke according to Dad . Oke later i want to see the X-ray thingy myself once i reach TTSH .
So after that cabbed back to Hougang and we family , had our dinner outside cos Mama din cook . And had a mini celebration for 2nd Brother's birthday . Cannot be too happy also what , nenek dalam hospital takkan nak happy-happy kan . So just a mini would do . And he told us that his GF bought alot of stuffs for him ! WOW kay . 1st gift for Brother is a G-Shock Watch(I swear its niceee ! I also want lah for my 18th ! Haha DREAM ON FIZA -_-") 2nd gift was a pair of ADIDAS Shoes ! (RED SOMEMORE ! I ALSO WANT !! HAHAHAH kay aku sot !) Lastly , she bought him a new pair of good-kind-material of wheel/tyres for his bike ! OMG ! I DUNO HOW MUCH SHE SPEND FOR ALL THAT ! How nice of her . I want a BF like her lah , i mean the other way round lah since she's a GF and i want a BF ! HAHAHA Kay lah fake jer .. Happy for Brother lah . May they last forever , Amin :)
And she's having her night shift now , Dad say its good , cos she can help to look after Nenek also at hospital now. Very convenient . But shes at ward 9 uh . Nenek at 11 . But Brother say for sure she will go up and keep a look out at Nenek . Thanks Mira ^^ At last i heard the word , "InsyaAllah Bakal cucu-menantu mak" from Dad's mouth when talking to Nenek just now . HAHA . I think he slowly accepting Mira . Good for them then . Whens my turn uh ? LOL LAMER LAGI DOKS ^^

Laughed alot just now at the hospital , all thanks to 3rd Brother and his jokes . Hahah . Heard from Mama that Nenek gonna be abit longer there . Sedih lah . Maybe will try to visit her everyday uh , insyaAllah .

Whoa long story nyer ! I likeee ^^ Nak bace , bace . Taknak , takper . Heh .

Anw , last Wednesday went out with Bestfriend Dayah . Actual plan was to go Town and Starbucks-ed . But last min , standard for us , we changed and went to catch a movie at Cineleisure . We catch Charlie St Clouds , theres ZAC EFRON ! And he looks HOT and CUTE ! Huhuhu .. Very sadded lah the movie . Overall was nice ! Go catch it people ! Even if u are not a fan of Zac like Dayah , just watch it . Its nice and touchy and lovely and sweet and everything nice . HAHAH ! Theres some part i feel like crying yaw ! Seriously . After that shopped a bit and we spend duno how long in one particular shop just to find earrings , bracelet . Haha but i liked it . Photos below . Home by 8+pm as we dun wanna miss KOPI BUJANG LAH ! Hahah . Syed Azmir Hot , kay dah .

Last Tuesday went to work after 1+ month not going . Just small changes , but still i dun like it XX . Irrits . I just only wear that uniform for a day , not even the whole day , just 4 hours , and it was dirtied like siao . Thanks to the new boy , he accidentally spilled soup and MILO on me . Grrr ... But nvm lah , im cool kay , i forgive him . Hah . Finished work asap cos i was damn tired lah ! Some more got backpain yaw . Back home , online for awhile , and zzzzzzzzzz like babs . Heh .

Whoaaaaaaaaaaaa seriously . So long story sia . HAHHAHA !

5 more days people , 5 MORE DAYS ! To ? My Legal 18th yaw ! Woohooo ! Who wants to go out with me ?!?!?! HAHAHHHAHAHA ! And im still not ready for .... Nah dun wanna say . Kay change story . I feel like skipping a day from school just for my 18th . Lol . Shall see how first uh .

2 more days to SCHOOL lah . Can dun go ?? -_-" ARGH SCHOOL , SCHOOL , i hate u :(

I miss alot of people lah :( If i were to name them , alot oke , alot ! My close friends , my ex-Sakura boys , my EC(s) and etc and MY LOVELY RELATIVES AT JB and ALSO MY OTHER-HALF !! Im gonna strangle Other-Half when i meet her anytime . Serious uh . She really gonna get something from me . Shits her lah . GRR ...

Called my niece from JB who texted me a day after we were back from JB that she missed me and the rest and especially hearing my voice . HAHAHA AWWWWW ! So sweet of her . She say , i never call her since the day we went back maybe cos i forgotten her alr . SIAO uh she ! Where got i forget her sia ?! Hiyaaa .. Its so nice chatting with her . Currently , this period , she and her younger Sister , Nazirah and small Brother , Saddam , is having their final exams . All the best for them . My prayers will always be there for them . I LOVE THEM !! ^^ Hopefully soon , will get to meet them eh . Maybe end of Dec ? Duno yet ..

From today onwards , im gonna do whats best for myself and FAMILY always first priority no matter what , then come FRIENDS . And the list goes on .. HAHAH U know i know lah ^^ I hope Allah can guide me thru whatever . Amin . Support me KELUARGA and KAWAN-KAWAN !! Heh heh ^^ Thank u :)

And a note for PSB , whoever u are , till now u haven even come online . WHO ARE U LAH ?! Why so difficult to reveal ?? Hiyaa . I lazy wait alr . Anytime u come online , please , at least email me something , like telling me who u are first kay ??? THANK U :)

I MISS KAMBING-TERBANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Oke lah , i gotta ciao . Its late alr . I have to wake up early kan ? Heh . Will update soon , duno when , maybe in few days time .

Before i go off , wanna wish ,

A very Happy __th Belated Birthday to Second Brother , Muhd Rohaizad !

All the best in everything u do Bro !

Last forever with Mira .

Stay happy and smile always .

Love u , Brother :)

Thats all for now .

Takecare lovelies .

Have a good sleep , and sweetdreams to all !

Ciao :)